Well the test results came in and I cold not be happier it is only fat on my liver thank God for that, I will have stomach scope done to see why I am having pain when I shouldn't be having pain. They are quick because, i had cancer before and they know a whole lot more than I. I just hope it all turns out alright

Okay here we go again, third time around, it seems it never ends once it start it keeps on going. This time there will be no cure, this time I really hope that it isn't just like any time before. I am so tired of the x rays the waiting the not knowing. I have crocheting a table cloth keeps me counting stitches in stead my mind wondering all over the place. This time is not like the last time, this time it feels different knowing that I do not have Cancer again, I feel good I do not feel sick, I didn't last time either. This time I just had heart burn for years and throwing up, taking Tums like they were candy and yes the stabbing pain in my chest was my gall badder. So I have gall stones no big deal, the big deal is when the doctor told me as pressed on my chest it should hurt and did. Was it the heart burn because it was bad. The very next day alter-sound, they found several spots on my liver, no big deal it not like I am a small women everyone gets them, no big deal. They look so concerned worried more so than me that should worry me right, no I was not okay a little. That was Nov 12, 2011. Now I can't sleep I for got to get my pics for the surgeon dam it Alter-sound and Ct scan done now they want a MRI. I have a MRI this Monday and I am scarred. Why because I got my results that I have read over and over again looking what information I could on the computer. This there will be no radiation treatments, this time they may do chemo this time dam well be fat cells |I can handle that. No Cancer you will not be coming back. Not this time I fought you last and I won you didn't you damn well leave me alone. If could only hear if only had a voice what would say to me. I had so much happen in the last year my neck gave way so, I couldn't work and now this seems all I do is fight fight so I could go back to work and still can't and now waiting for one more test one more operation, one more result. I hope that it is not what they think and I have to think it not but, always there nagging away is it or isn't it.

Independance

March 30 2011 Found a lump

Okay everything was going fine until today. I had an appointment at the cancer clinic and yes they found a lump in the left breast once again. Setting me for mammogram. Then they will do a testing to find out if its cancer. Between arthritis in my neck, and not being able to work because I can not lift anything more than 5 pounds and now this.Waiting is the hardest part because you don't know.Time will only tell, I will not worry about it I will just do what what I can do and that is all that I can do. I also know that if the cancer has returned that they will remove the left breast completely this time. I will have to Chemo and that is just how they deal with it. I will keep my spirits up and hope for the best and will keep up with my blog as events arise. I have a 50th Birthday coming up so I need to start making plans for that.