I had my surgery on October the 23 and I feel not to bad how ever my arm and breast some times get sore. That because fluid builds up in the place where the lymph node and tumour were so, it can get sore. Friday the 18th of December I go to Calgary to get my tattoos done, also a brace so they can inject the radiation in to me in the right spot the whole left boob. And I get a ct scan done at this time. I don't know yet when I will be heading off of the five week stay yet. At least l will have an enjoyable Christmas.

Well it is the 18th of November and there is good news and bad. The good news no chemo yah hoo oh I guess I all told you that wonderful news. The bad news damn I have to have radiation treatment. So in three weeks from now they (medical team) will be getting a hold of me and letting me know when I will be going to Calgary. The reason for this because of 1/3 of women that do not have radiation treatment the cancer will come back. So, because of this reason they would like me to have the radiation treatment done. I am not really keen of the idea of going to Calgary for the treatment. but I know I have to have it is something that has to done . I will be going in January sometime. I will be allowed to come home except on the weekends and the rest of the time I will be on my own in Calgary. Life can really sucks at times but in the end I will be cancer free. I will be there for 5 weeks.

All Good News

All Good News Thats what Dr Gomes said margins of the tumour look really good. That means the cancer has not spread. Also that lymph nodes have no cancer cells in them thats good no chance there that the cancer has spread. Will I need radiation treatment that is yet to be determined by an other specialist that I don't see until the 18th of month. I feel like my energy is coming back. I feel alive and grateful. They found it in the just the right time. Thank God that he answers prayers.

Friday D day

Well I guess I will get my test results this Friday. My throat is so sore, I wish I could eat. I went to my doctor and he has tested me for strep throat but, the infection is going in my ear. So I don't know I will see him tomorrow and see whats up. I will also get my flue shot with the H1N1 flue shot so I do not get sick while having radiation treatments. I hope that all is well with my test results just a waiting game right now.

Surgery Goes Well

Well I had my surgery. I am a little sore and I do have use of left arm and a very slight tingling in the hand. They removed the lump and one lymph node this good I guess. Reason for one I don't know. I will see my surgeon in one weeks time and will know why only one in stead of two. May he thought there was no cancer in the lymph nodes I don't know. But I do feel a lot better knowing that the lump is out. Feeling a bit tired due to the medication I am on, but all in all I am doing well. I am ready for visitors I thought I would let you know. Thanks for your support Love you all Jenny

Day before Surgery

There is only one day left and then the lump comes out. I feel relaxed as I am steaming cleaning, doing laundry and cutting the dogs nails. Relaxing some what and keep focused on the positive.
I know that the surgery will be alright. Just another stepping stone to get through. I have to Remember that it is not what happens in life, It is how we deal with it. W Micheall I know that the next few weeks will be trying. I know that I will have feelings of fear , anger, frustration and lack of control. I have to have positive thoughts and at time it will be hard. To gain control I have to be positive and call on my friends and family for help. Laughter need lots of laughter funny movies humorous books that will be on my list of things I can do. And I will do lots of meditation.
I guess my main fears will be test results and the use of my left hand and arm because of lumphedma a common side effect. But I am sure that I would rather have lumphedma rather then cancer. Lets pray the cancer has not spread to lump nodes. Thanks for your thought and prayers Jenny

Good news aor Bad

Well I did go to my appointment called Nurse Teaching. wow information like crazy. What I have learned cheered me up. I originally believed that the tumour was 7cm it is mot it is only 10 mm. I also found out that I have two types of cancer. DCIS is one there is no chance of this cancer spreading through the ducts or lymph nodes. However, I also have the invasive breast cancer, this cancer can so this why I need to have my lymph nodes removed during surgery. I have an appointment with my surgeon on Monday and we will go over the details of my surgery. I will be having this later on next week and I am okay. I guess asking the right questions releases some stress and some worry. The surgery doesn't bother me as much as not knowing the answers. Please send your funnies to qtpie40@hotmail.com I need them to keep myself up lifted. Laughter is the best medicine. Thanks Jenny

Okay I looking forward to my next appointment that would be today.
Why? because I have a ton of questions that I want answered about the surgery. I don't know if the surgeon will be present at this appointment but, I do have a follow up on in the next week before my surgery date. I gotten over the fear and feel more positive that I had in the last two weeks. I guess I need time to wrap my head around it. I don't feel to alone in the world and I no longer feel I have a disease that I can not beat. I just have to get on track and eat right and I will fight it. I can win, done it once before I can so it again. Thanks for thinking of me as I too think of each and everyone of you. Jenny

Oh the news, so good that my chest x- came back as normal. Wow what a release off my mind. Due to smoking 20 years it makes you wonder. I am so done with cigarettes. I also got a surgery date and it will toward the second last week of this month. I am okay, it is just process that I have to go through to get health again, And I will one step at a time. If at any time you have any question I will answer them the best that I can, this will also make think of questions to ask my doctors.

Some of you know and others don't. I have once again have cancer. So how do I feel? Well I look okay, except I need a hair cut. I feel like shit. I don't believe that is a bad thing I mean when is cancer good?
But for having cancer I know that there is a lot worse cases out there. I am lucky to have found in the very early stages. I can not feel it this is good news because as I have learned the bigger the lump the not so easy to treat but, does not mean they can not treat it just harder. So what other news can I give you well its only 7cm this good for cancer because I can not feel it. And they are going to surgery. They will do lumpectomy. This where they take out the lump and normal tissue around the lump so there less or no chance of the cancer growing back. They will also take two of the lumph nodes out at this time and check them to see if they have cancer growth with in them. If they do they will remove two more. I will have to radiation treatment and this will be the hardest part of the treatment becasuse I will have to spend 5 weeks in Calgary to have this done and only coming home on the weekends. This unlike kemo. I will be glad when the whole thing is over and done with. The hardest thing about having cancer to much information. Give me what I need to know for now and I will find the answers as I need them. I should be done all my treatment if every thing goes as planed by the first week of Dec. I letting you know the facts as I know them. I like to keep all my friends and family posted on the treatment so you all know how I am doing. Allan is doing great he is my true rock. I will keep you posted as I have said and you can read and be touch with me. I will not know my next surgery date until the 19th of this month. I would love to say thank to Dr Coma who said most women have there first mammogram at the age of 50 I had mine at 48 and I sure it will save my life. Do check your breast regulary and remeber that a mammogram hurts way less then hearing you have cancer. Thanks Jenny